So u feel like _____ fill in the blank. (blah)

Let me just share real quick my devo this morning. It was really refreshing.

I had been feeling like such a loser, an undisciplined child, just really frustrated with myself, and mostly dissapointed at how much I fail our Dad.

And this morning it was like a refreshing cup of water and a different perspective. In luke 18 there is the comparison of the pharisee and the tax collector... then later the rich guy trying to basically buy his way to heaven. We see that Dad's nature is all about having us depend on him and not on ourselves.

So when we feel like crap and like worthless children.. its because we are haha.... I mean, YES we're so precious to him, BUT just us, on our own, we are filthy rags before our Dad.

So its good to feel terrible sometimes, its like He reminds us of how much we need Him and how much we lack without Him. So just Thank HIM for that time you felt like crap... and realize he's wanting u to see urself without Him, and calling you to Him, to depend on Him. To allow Him to mold that area your lacking.

Usually when all things are great and we're "doing" alot... it's really easy to feel holier than though... but thank the Lord the Spirit reminds us of our weaknesses and our NEED to depend on HIM, because I sooo do not want to ever again come before Dad with the case like the Pharisee. Who honesltly, YES he was a great man, he was giving glory to Dad for taking him out of a bad life, (who doesn't?) he was being faithful and disciplined in his walk, fasting? tithing? He was praising Him, with his heart, he wasn't even shouting it out loud.

BUT...here's the issue... he was at a point where he didn't see all his shortcomings.... and this is what we need to be constantly reminded of... our shortcomings and our dependance, constant dependance on the Father. You must realize the NEED you have to abide in the Father!

So yes... I need more discipline, He's showing me many of my shortcomings... but hey, later when there is some good fruit ... it was because of HIM, and only Him.

and last.... there is always room for improvement. So this horrible feeling that we get of not being good enough... is normal... because its true. We just got to learn to take those feelings and use them as motivation to seek Dad more, knowing that even though we feel we're not good enough, we were definitely loved enough for Him to call us unto Him! We are his.... just a work in progress until the day we see Him face to face.

I hope I'm being clear buddy, I'm just typing as I think...