I'm writing about this moment. In this moment in time I feel so secure in the Lord's plans. I can't describe the way I feel, and it doesnt make sense because I cannot see what He is doing, I see glimpses, which give me an idea of what He might be doing in my life and in my relationships, but if I were to sit and tell you what I see, you'd probably not understand the conclusion I've come to.
So mostly this is a documentation for myself. Jasmine, remember how you feel right now. As you are sitting outside in this garden with the perfect 70 degree weather and wind blowing through your hair, you have your pj's and you've been cleaning up and arranging this garden listening to " I see Heaven" and your secure and confident that the Lord has heard your prayers. He sent his servant from Kenya, to pray and release you into what is your next, and to believe him for this very thing your heart desires. You know with all your heart, you were not expecting this message, and at the moment you weren't really thinking about it, but God in his sovereignty and love, put it in this man's heart to intercede on your behalf, and say it is done.
Now you are asking the next questions, and rejoicing in your answered prayer. You feel like Hannah when she had grieved before the Lord year after year, and finally the year came when the Priest saw her and told her Khalas, go in Peace, and her face turned from sadness to rest and peace... and in DUE TIME... the Lord gave her her request. You know the Lord has heard you, he has sent his word to go out, and now you sit still my daughter and Delight yourself in the Lord.
Your wondering where to go next, yes these questions are not yet answered completely but you feel confident that Papa is revealing them. You are serving him in the little things, honoring him, it is holy, even sweeping is holy unto the Lord, all your actions are holy unto the Lord. You feel like the Lord is watching you and seeing your faithfulness. You also feel like an intercessor. Actually this is your role right now, an intercessor. You sense the schemes of the enemy, and you stop them through your prayers. You feel like you see the effects of your prayers.
Your not afraid for what is to come, you trust and you walk by faith. You are excited at the invitations you've had in the past week to different nations, and the fact that you just got off the phone from a full arabic conversation :) You rejoice that you are loved, desired, and valued.
Daddy reminded you this morning about Rebekka and how he chose her for Isaac. You know you've been chosen, and He has put in lots of work in you. He's cleaned up, dug up, removed stones from your garden and it is beautiful. It's unique and precious and He delights in you. You know your not one from a crowd, but you are set apart, unique, special, created for a purpose and obedient in walking this out. You will not settle for second best, you will wait for and pursue in prayer for the Lord's purposes. You will not allow your disobedience to get in the way of the Lord's promises in store and planned for you.
:)
Yasmine
