Awakened to love

My beloved has roared with a passionate love over my heart. My heart has been unsealed and awakened to love. The cover is removed by my lover who has pursued me with confidence and love. I'm awakened to life; to love. I see the lion of Judah roaring over my heart. Demonstrating his magnificent love and determination. It's a persistent roar loud and majestic; confident and eternal. He won't relent. The plastic screen; the covering is removed from my heart. It's unsealed by the sound of his roar. It's time to love without fear. . He loves me he loves me.... The groom is searching for his bride. He is looking to love her; to satisfy her with sweet and tender love....so many sleeping hearts...listen....My lover is knocking. He comes. "I arose to open for my lover and my hands dripped with myrrh on the handles of the lock." Awake oh north wind, come wind of the south and awaken me to love....."if you find my beloved tell him I am faint with love." I'll search for you as treasure as that pearl hidden away. I am awakened. Keep me as the apple of your eye... I lift up my eyes to you oh lover of my soul...there's no place I'd rather be than here in your love. Great awakening.

June 2012 back out in the Middle East

I arrived Jordan the beginning of June with a group of friends after a week we became like family. I came back to this region in love with Jesus and expectant to see the Holy Spirit move in power and to move as He led. I enjoyed my time in Amman met some amazing people that I wish I had more time with. This is the hardest part for me.... To connect and disconnect so quickly with people. Ah but just makes me smile the father is wonderful in allowing me to meet such awesome people he shows me what he is doing in their lives and it's beautiful!!!! Oh God the works of your hands are perfect they are beautiful!!! I love being a part of what God is doing in places that are untouched by the decadence of greed selfishness and human manipulation. Behold I am doing a new thing declares the Lord. Can you not perceive it... I make streams in the desert. Streams of living water. I love to be with people who are on fire for life. Passionate people. When you truly are happy to be alive. To love life to desire life is to be truly alive. How I long to run, with a holy pursuit of all things glorious for the fulfillment of the desires of my heart which is to see justice and righteousness delivered; love and healing that satisfies the deepest darkest places. joy an beauty where foundations have been burned and to see restoration of beauty where there seems to be no hope. This is a time to focus on the design that truly brings transformation. For the more te greatness that comes from above. To set a goal and run with it.it definitely a different feeling now. Last time the Lord showed me what I could do without him but now I am discovering what is to be done alongside Him!!! :) exciting!

Jaz after being REVOLUTIONIZED! action requested :)

	Moving Forward      Volume 2, Issue 1  This week marks my year mark since I was evacuated from the "Desert"....survived a Revolution and TURN of History. Now I am writing to you from DALLAS As many of you know, leaving Egypt was very difficult for me. I was stripped away from my "home", "family", and "friends" in a matter of..... 1 DAY! Jaz packed 1 bag; left everything behind and got on the last plane out of Egypt to the states.  Yes, I waited till they made it mandatory. Bless my parent's hearts. Thank you for your support and prayers!!! It happened all too fast.  Recovering from such a loss has definitely been a process! Although I have kept in touch with most of you through personal emails, fbook, visits, my last formal update was sent probably right before the Egyptian Government cut our communication with the world. So in honor of my year mark I am starting my newsletter once again!! Subscribe to my newsletter by clicking on this link http://www.GMailingList.com/journeywithjaz and following the instructions, this will make life much more simpler for us! If you know of anyone who would like to be added just pass this link, do not forward emails.  First matter of business done... shall we continue? YES....read on! JAZZY is BACK- Dreaming WITH God, being Obedient, and walking by Faith like never before. I hope you forgive me for this break in our communication. I equate my 2011 with Esther's year of beauty treatments. Before a girl's turn came to go in with the King, she had to complete twelve months of beauty treatments prescribed for the women, 6 months with oil of myrrh and 6 with perfumes and cosmetics. (Esther 2:12) Before her "such a time as this" moment she needed preparation!! I could relate to her in many ways and the Lord specifically highlighted to me this year process and the necessity I had to go through it....I'll share more about this process as we move along.... Whew 2011 was an eventful year and the vision the Lord gave me and my calling were put to the test! However, we ARE moving forward with full confidence that if God is for us, then who can be against us! I'd like to extend an invitation to you to join me as I continue on this journey. I hope your still with me and I didn't lose you along the way. Also, i'd like to welcome those newbies with me as well!  Expecting great things along the way! Thank you for coming alongside me. I have so much to share! GO TO THE LINK, and subscribe to my newsletter. For now I just want to make sure your on board. I'll send another letter with what's next soon. I'd like to encourage you, 2012 is a year to THRIVE and to do so alongside people who are focused on loving in WORD and DEED! Let me know how I can be praying for/with you. Jaz

Walking in utter trust and expectant confidence in God.
How do you walk in such a way? Who has walked with God?

Gen.5:22 Enoch walked with God
Gen 6:9 Noah walked with God- a righteous man, blameless among the people of his time.
Micah 6:8 He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God.

Prayer, contrary to popular opinion, is not primarily asking God for things, but rather being with God. 1 thess. 5:17 says pray continually, if we were to do this we'd be walking with Him all day, don't you think? But how? Seems like our notion of prayer needs some adjustment. I'm out to find that out.

Prayer is not incessant talking to God but unceasing walking with God.
1 John 2:6 Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.

1 Chronicles 5:20
They were helped in fighting them, and God handed the Hagrites and all their allies over to them, because they cried out to him during the battle. He answered their prayers, because they trusted in him.

Jeremiah 10:23
[ Jeremiah's Prayer ] I know, O LORD, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps.

Romans 12:12
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Its a lifestyle- a way of trusting, leaning on the Lord.

There's a problem if we can't do this, and it boils down to not trusting, selfishness, and fear.

He meant it to be for us to walk before him without any shame in complete friendship and respect. but..... Lust of the eyes, desire, and rebellion took place.
Genesis 3:8
Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden.

Genesis 17:1
"I am God Almighty; walk before me and be blameless.

Walk before God and be unashamed. Thank you Lord for giving us Jesus to allow us to walk unashamed before you.

After you have suffered a little while....

May flowers... hmmm....
I guess soon they'll come. Right now I don't see them. Its been a tough couple of weeks. I feel that every deep relationship/friendship that I've built has been torn away from me. My comfort, my peace is that the my relationship with the Lord cannot be torn away, no matter where I'm at, He is near. He knows my every thought, my sorrows, my desires. He understands me and in my stubborness He is patient to teach me and discipline me in love. Today is Mexican Mother's day. I bought some flowers for my sis here, I miss my family.

Music. It has the power to make you sad, happy, thoughtful, tired, frustrated, scared. Usually you can't think clearly while music is playing, if it has lyrics. Silent button. Shhhhhhh..... what peace. In this crazy city its constantly noisy and loud. I need rest. But the quietness reminds me that I'm alone. Being alone is not something that is easy for me. I guess if I walked with the assurance that I would be alone only for a little while longer, I'd enjoy the quietness more.

We want what we don't have rather than indulging in all that we do have.

I can't believe there are only about 5 months left until I say goodbye. I think I might come back. But this depends on alot of things. I can't see myself like this for 2 more years. I'm waiting on the Lord to make some things clear. He's showed me that one of those options of mine is not that great. But I'm asking that he would do a work, and I know He is able. So I wait, and we'll see.

I pray that eyes of the heart will be enlightened to see Dad's marvelous plans and will.
I need something new, and refreshing. I feel like its been struggle after struggle, yalla, Dad, you said after a little while.....